sweet days

My little girl is starting to try walking now. She waited longer than both boys and it only makes sense to me. She can crawl faster than walk so she takes a few steps or one then sits down and crawls. She knows we want her to walk so she stands there and sorta starts to slowly sqat down until she can take off crawling. She will be a year here in month and a week. I can't believe it. She means so much to this family. We saw with our own eyes how two couples this year at our church lost a baby and i cannot thank the lord enough that she is healthy and happy. I don't feel guilty for it but i sympathize with them and hurt for them. I all to well know the huge hole in their hearts right now. I remember it and that deep saddness. My life now is such a different story but only until i chose to give my pain to God. Only he can fill up that hole with happiness and love and strength. I have three beautiful children and one little angel baby i will never forget. But now i don't have to cry when i think of him, believe it or not i can smile now and say some day i will see him again.